Numbers

Woke up and I checked how the world liked me last night
A little red number deciding I'm alright
The scale in the morning, the balance in the bank
A scoreboard in my pocket that I could never outrank

And I handed it my worth, let it tell me what I'm worth
Every buzz another verdict, I could feel it getting worse

But I'm not a number
Not a follower count, not a name on a list
Not the digits on a paycheck, not the likes that I missed
Not the weight on the scale, not the score in the end
I'm not a number — I'm remembering again
No, I'm not a number

The algorithm knows me better than my closest friend
Feeds me all the ways I'll never measure up again
I chased a little hit of it like it was love
Poured out my only life just to feel enough

And I handed it my worth, let it tell me what I'm worth
Till I couldn't feel a good thing under all that hurt

But I'm not a number
Not a follower count, not a name on a list
Not the digits on a paycheck, not the likes that I missed
Not the weight on the scale, not the score in the end
I'm not a number — I'm remembering again
No, I'm not a number

What's the number on a morning that felt like enough
What's the metric on the people that I love
There's no dashboard for the way she says my name
No download for the light through the glass after rain

I'm not a number
Tear the scoreboard off the wall
I'm not a number
I was always more than all of it

More than all of it
I was always more than all of it